Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Tree of life and tree of death

   Tree of life

Above picture has tree of life and its overall connections. On tree of death they are usually replaced by something very different or opposite. At least personally i feel things described on tree of life, if truthful, add up to government that is relatively easy to like. Tree of death usually describes attributes and behaviors that are common with most horrible governments. Sometimes tree of death is called shadow for tree of life and there are many examples in history where rulers claiming to run their territory through attributes which happen to be on tree of life while in shadow they were something way worse and closer to what was on tree of death. In Cabalistic views tree of death (or Kelipot or Qliphoth) are names for "tree" that usually represent evil or impure forces while tree of life represents good or pure forces. Tree of life usually includes honest and balanced power while tree of death involves unbalanced destructive and dishonest behaviors but there are many interpretations of what these trees mean but i used versions that felt most close to describing reality. Interpretations usually describe something coming from God and moving down on tree of life gets to things that are increasingly less direct emanations of God. God according to Kabbalah (and many monotheistic religions) is often described as some infinity that was source to all that is.

God in this view is above this tree and "crown" on top of the tree is often described as incomprehensible and most hidden of hidden things in Zohar (group of books that are foundational work to ideas known as Kabbalah and source to those 2 trees). Crown is between God and wisdom/understanding. Next level below it is intellectual having components like understanding and wisdom. Understanding involves rational thinking but wisdom part represents ideas that come through inspiration or "come from nothingness". Below them are more emotional levels that depend on understanding and wisdom. Chesed can include trying to live good life characterized by kind and merciful behavior. Gevurah (strength or severity) relates to strict following of law, awe and judgement. Tiferet is described as beauty, compassion, balance, integration and it is balancing between severity and kindness. Occasionally tree of life is shown with Daas/Da'at in middle of previously mentioned 6 Sephirots. In Daas all sephirahs are in state of sharing. Netzach/eternity involves long suffering, patience and endurance for completing something. Hod includes majesty and self restraint. Malkuth is usually described as material world itself. Yesod is partly connector between material world and behavioral/intellectual higher sephirots.

Middle sephirahs usually mean something that connect. Left side involves things that follow rules while right side is more caring and less ordered by rules.

Lack of balance in tree of life could leads closer to Qliphoth. For example strength without chesod (mercy or loving-kindness) can lead to murderous nightmarish society. Splendor without patience/endurance is relatively unstable and lack of splendor next to netzach can lead to sense of suffering for no payoff.

                                                                       Qliphoth/tree of death

Top of death of tree has "thaumiel" which represents dual competing forces which are illustrated by 2 headed monster ruled by satan.
In place of wisdom it has ghagiel which has demons called hinderers who are described as black giants with serpents around them who are stuck on lying appearances.
In place of understanding it has sathariel (concealment of God) in the form of black veiled horned demons with ugly eyes and centaurs following behind demons. Its outer layer is black labyrinth with chaotic riddles and which is ruled by demon from hell's government.
Instead of loving-kindness it has gamchicoth (devourers) who are disturbers of all things and who seek to waste the substance and thought of creation. They are sometimes shown as black cat headed giants.
Instead of strength it has golachab (burning bodies) which destroys even destroyers destroy themselves in process. While strength was representing destruction of unlawful and unnecessary thing golachab is more extreme form of it unhindered by kindness. Golachab is more tyrannical and kills all dissenters/opponents.
Instead of beauty it has thagirion (disputers) which creates ugliness and groans about it. They are symbolized by black giants that constantly work against each other. Instead of balancing this part maintains ugly and destructive forces.
Instead of netzach it has harab serapel which are ravens of death or dispersion that reject even their own. While related to endurance or netzach it is not balanced by majesty and self control of hod so it becomes more chaotic and scatters efforts. Also lack of restrictions for enduring efforts can mean work is done to achieve that is in no way majestic or splendid and can include all crimes which need patience.
Instead of hod it has samael which means angel of death but also desolation and failed creation.
Instead of yesod it has gamaiel which are misshapen polluted images which produce terrible results. Yesod involves final place where plans materialize but in gamaiel those plans are too misshapen to not materialize into terrible results.
Instead of kingdom it has whisperers who frighten and create strange desires.

Behaviors described in tree of death are what typical tyrannical place usually do. Also "death" in name of that tree is not just name but also real result of what happens if rulers are forced to obey what is on that tree. Some governments produce too misshapen visions and plans to not cause mess or widespread deaths (like soviet farming reforms or great leap forward or some reassuring vision of military victory). Due to paranoia and constant suspicions many people reject their own. Murderous anger is against almost all other countries with some claiming that own people can die as long they get to kill enough of others. Ugliness is created in large amounts and groaned about like with false flag operations, agents creating other ugliness or lying propaganda as long it keeps people in murderous mood. Waste is common and production is largely concentrated on destructive military equipment and away from creative thoughts. Truth is hidden in labyrinths of chaotic riddles in system ran by those worthy of title of hell's governors. Those near top are surrounded by sneaky serpents and stuck on lying appearances unless they are ok with dying for being honest. Opposition is usually killed. "Kingdom" is partly supported by swarm of propagandist/whisperers who frighten and work to create strange desires. Nowadays internet commenters could be sort of whisperers. They quietly and anonymously give weird thoughts like some behavior in other country being excuse to be at war with others plus treat them as subhumans but at same time it gives them some right to do same crimes as other governments in history and logic bypass attempts usually involve emotional statements.

Reason why i added appearance of demons was that some of them have been showing up on widely around world in media and in governmental flags for centuries although schooling systems around world have been skipping connections with Kabbalah. Black cat heads can often be found on those who's job is to waste time like pop musicians. Cat being associated with wasting could be reason why media sometimes jokes that internet is mostly cats.

Most common and serious creature described on that tree is 2 headed demon which seems to be 2 headed eagle on flags on many European countries that seem to be tree of death puppets. In other parts of world pentagram tends to be symbol of wasteful, militaristic, corrupt and otherwise hellish governments.
For example russian flags often have 2 headed eagle. Their military branches have those creatures also, including their branch which has nuclear arsenal.
Wars in Europe have been rare but areas with those 2 headed monsters keep on reigniting to this day. For example Balkan wars where those involved have or used to have 2 headed eagles on some of the flags. Flag of Serbia above is still currently in use. Yugoslavia used to have similar ones up to 1941. Kosovo had that eagle on flag until 2007. Albania has it to present time.

Armenian coat of arms has small version of that eagle within it and military unrest included shooting down helicopter even in 12. November 2014 by separatists whose flag has 1 headed eagle.

Flag of "Donetsk republic" which is political party founded in 2005. They were involved in starting armed uprising in eastern Ukraine.

After taking over city in 2014 they declared their republic there and mostly kept the flag design although they adjusted flag by making eagles shut their mouths and removed their legs and globus cruciger. Also angelic creature in middle got more bat like (sharper) wings which thaumiel demon was supposed to have. Even one militant grouping was named batman battalion with leader that had nickname "batman". Resulting "republics" in eastern Ukraine occasionally get attention with soviet era death penalty laws being allowed for small things. Death from rules and/or chaos will be practically acceptable for something part of tree of death. Deaths are only tragedies in their media if it helps agitate more people to fight but death will not matter or will get cheered if caring would get in way of killing. Considering what this 2 headed creature means on flag of any area, it would be almost certain that this area is going to have ongoing fighting, violent purges, endless violently "outraged" mobs that attack critics of government, governments complaints about ugliness it creates (but blames on dissenters) as excuse for killing, for as long this flag is what local government uses.

Predictably those who publicly serve death tree are going to be and stay miserable as visible in faces of most "pro-russian" protesters. Almost only ones with happy calm places are holding their kids in front of themselves. Most are grimacing or looking sad. Many have their faces covered by masks to not show how they feel in their fight.

As death tree slaves are doing bad job at looking happy their sadness and anger/frustration is used in form of wailing women or angry protesters that repeat same lies. They are serving something that is supposed to end life in any way including taking away will to live. If they are suicidal or drink themselves to death or feel entitled to practice fighting on minorities then it still proves tree delivers what name hints at. Their honey traps  would be prostituting themselves to prolong this misery and like agents and soldiers they risk and likely lose their lives to keep their glorious homeland under this hell government for longer. Any change for better would probably be fought against in their media as some decline towards hell or death to all even though prolonging what they live under is much more likely to cause that.

Common feature of countries with pentagrams or eagles (with one or 2 heads) is that they usually spend much of their money on weaponry no matter how poor most people are. At least top 2 weapon exporting countries have those symbols on their flags. They could be exporting other unhealthy and deadly products like alcohol or just enslaving economic systems that ruins lives for cheaper production costs (labels barely matter if economic system involves treating workers as worthless slaves who's role is to serve with minimum wage for the benefit of thankless outsiders whose attitudes are reinforced typically by lies like for example that slaves are worthless parasites and getting more money than they help make for their bosses). Commonly they also export huge amounts of fossil fuels which are basically long dead lifeforms but at least it doesn't profit from deaths of those who still live as much as wars although mining and refining those fuels does kill along with armed conflicts to get control over mining or drilling areas.

These tree of death behaviors can be what overlords of countries used to show off which country they managed to enslave. Profits often don't stay to locals. Taxes are avoided in many ways. From russia oligarchs move profits to buy some of the most expensive real estate in more western countries. From USA profits that taxpayers through subsidies or clients helped add can just disappear to some foreign country where profits don't get taxed. Just because overlords have several slave countries with similar symbols and worker benefits and ruler parasitism doesn't protect them from other slave countries as wars or deadly events are core features of this system and rulers probably feel safer knowing that slaves are busy fighting each other with paranoid armed forces controlling slaves with excuse of protecting common people. Most would be too busy worrying about how to not appear on wrong side in public war. This creates plenty of mutual hatred to keep various groups hostile towards each other for generations so they would not be in mood to get along and potentially ally against overlords who exploited them (sort of large scale trauma based mind control). There is no "superpower" country strong enough to not be enslaved and repressed by wars where people have to join the fight or be labelled traitors. Inner rebellions are further agitated by making countries do opposite of what they promise. Freedom spreading by USA involves helping companies get useful chaos and desperate poverty along with undemocratic local rulers while in russia claims of being anti fascist are undermined by funding right wingers in EU countries, praising their own nation as some master race who should run more of the world and rule surrounding "subhumans" and being violent against other races. As their main excuse for invading has been either Islamic terrorism or nazis then it gives them incentive to get people to seemingly belong to one of those groups. Even couple guys with swastikas could be used by their politicians, media and shills to justify war even if those guys got paid millions to dress as nazis. This creates incentives for russian pro-expansionist factions to be major funders for any nazi group. Gaining additional countries or even few towns to rob and loot and abduct slave labor would be enough to make those expenses back. Troops could get their salary by searching every house, rob those and new police would cover for robbers. Also having general chaos/lawlessness is cheap (not by costs in lives) to maintain and is easy way of making people desperately crave for order stability even if it comes from "strongman" running their lives and giving up rights to speak against government in public although why should rulers give them order if that takes excuse to oppress 100+ million people.
Using ancient symbols by them could give outsiders feelings that maybe rulers are part of same group that ruled since time the symbol first got added. This reduces hope that shadowy group could be defeated even if in reality millions of separate independent groups through millennia may have been using those for looking bigger and more unstoppable.

Monday, May 5, 2014

Thoughts on "mind control" and personality "fragments"

At least in following uses of "fragment" i mean part of personality which is mostly one stereotypical response towards certain things. Most if not all memories can be considered fragments as attention can deal with small amount of data at same time. People seem to change depending what they recently reminded themselves. Like mirror fragment those memory fragments are reflecting reality differently.

People almost inevitably have many competing fragments in them with various helpful or destructive effects. They don't even have to be believed by person. For example if someone lives in dictatorship or cult which threatens critics then people try to create apparent supporter/fragment of dangerous organization for safety reasons who is shown to others to evade torture or death. Usually it doesn't matter how much they hate dictator as some part of their behavior puts on show of support for survival. And like with communist and nazi dictatorships proved many outsiders were quickly made to insist that this apparent support is sincere show of support and these dictators are so clever they can turn almost all people to fanatical supporters no matter how miserable these "supporters" look in front of camera. Media has stubbornly to this day often insisted that dictators have real fanatical support from close to all people. It probably serves as global version of divide and conquer where lies keep people from cooperating. And so outside masses were made to look like gullible idiots who believe such brainwashing is amazingly powerful so they would be likely to try and learn this skill.

Many fragments seem busy keeping person alive by evading dangerous activity and trying to fight such behavior off  from mind can seem like going towards suicide.
Similar fragments seem to cooperate. Drugs tend to create cravings for others drugs etc. Angry, generous, happy and other fragments can draw attention to other fragments with similar traits which should be considered during interrogations.

Common belief in separate good and evil or bad side within also shatters personalities and causes memory loss in the form of competing fragments within where one attitude evades memories like bad side not knowing reasons to be good or better at this situation and "good" sides convincing persons they are good and not responsible of worst character traits as that's just evil force which is out of persons control.

Passive and active sides also are controlled by attitudes that are not overlapping. Lazy fragments causing stress when deprived from passivity and active fragments unhappy if being lazy.

Cutting and isolating mind fragments cuts them from influence from self censoring sides of personality and such behavior causes stress.   

Biological clock and memory are somehow connected in ways that people feel urge to do similar things at same parts of day so in way some fragments wake at certain times while they don't distract during other parts of days so self control needs change through hours.


Way more stealthier way could be use of media to create many "fragments". People are shown how to behave in which situation but most likely these advices are self-defeating and unproductive but they lure people by seemingly respectable people advising them to do. 
Some music videos create feeling listener already has what was desired and what they work/strive
towards so maybe they don't bother improving their lives. Millionaire celebrities seem to praise
them already. These satisfied fragments in thinking can reduce likelihood of  people trying to improve things. Instead they aspire to be improved versions of pop celebrities that look childish or immature and yet get paid millions.

Emotions may be tried to be cancelled out by creating opposite viewpoints to real ones and representing them as equal as possible so those who don't know better will have 2 opposing ideas that cancel each other out and leave behind mostly apathy.

Some fragments are dedicated to seeking living in dreamy part of music with no future or past. Just
a artificial dreamland moment that is lost with distractions or when music ends.

Much of entertainment industry offers idea that lack of self control is fun and good. Including rap
music with hostility towards police, laws and women. Common themes in entertainment are uncontrollable anger, drug cravings, laziness (but also keeping self busy to be sleep deprived), lust, greed for money/power and self glorification etc. 

Common motto "work hard, party/play hard" is easy way to break person into very incomplete fragments. "Work hard" tends to instill robotic worker mentality that gives all it can to serve bosses and other makes them wasteful partying consumers who spend what money they could to make that days party bit more fun. Why care of costs if it's for supposedly creating happy memories even if person that lives by that motto feel incomplete or even failures (no money to keep partying fragments going) if they can't drink themselves to blackouts.

Media can also control overlords that control governments by creating sense of scary forces that except certain things from them so even most powerful people in their planning and thinking negotiate around perceived dangers and serious rules even if they don't exist. Dictators and politicians could also be influenced like that.

Personal experiences with personality "fragmentation"

To me a powerful subtle idea happened to be that i should not try to be one stereotype/fragments at time but to try and kinda stare them all. Somehow this mindset reduces my desires to take sedatives, coffee etc. And in week the average daily amount reduced by about half which is improvement but far from sober lifestyle. Maybe because trying to suppress memories causes anxiety as whenever i tried to pretend something obvious doesn't exist (like any number or object). Also i started skipping viewpoints like life goes either through sedated times or unsedated stressful times. Within same it felt like awakening from subtle tunnel vision while gaining ability to notice such fragmented tunnels in other people who live circle around those without getting where they want to be.

Update 15.05.2014

Potential of mental "fragmentation" could arise from huge brain mass considering tiny bugs with less than million neurons can also often have enough instincts to survive and chase many rewards. Human brain weigh about as much as 2000-3000 mouse brains or slightly over 10 wolf brains so it kinda makes sense why people can have competing complex behaviors within same skull competing over who gets to control body. Each habit may in brain involve group of diverse neurons obsessed over certain reward or punishment with connections to sensory memory which knows how to recognize rewards or dangers and they each may dominate if other simple fragments don't override impulses.     

Controlling which part of behavior gets to come out is bit like controlling herd. Swarms of bugs, mice and wolves can all be spooked, stirred or awakened by many stimuli commonly used in parades or media like loud sounds, flashy colors, symmetry, wild uninhibited behaviors or quickly changing experiences. Such entertainment often causes trance or semi-sleep type state where people become more passive with exception to whatever media tells them to worry about as this mental fragment is awakened and nurtured by promises of rewards and other things really don't matter. Forming superego to control animalistic impulses is bit like manufacturing simplistic bug or mouse type impulses that obsess about not doing certain things. Like hivemind within that considers longer term suffering and joys. Controllers often try to make people obsess in tunnel visions which circulate to the benefit of
rulers.  To bypass this inner censor media, religions and governments create apathy to all but whatever those controlling factions want. Simplest and most hated way to achieve controlled apathy is by creating dictatorships where death threats make people uncaring to most things as survival is highest priority and they know only way to survive is to have automatic responses that rulers demand which then control body from within like piece of ruling overmind. But similar apathy can also be created by religions where infinite pleasures or sufferings in afterlife or idea of infinite god tend to make people apathetic towards surrounding world even if they are supposed to admire what god created. Desperate poverty may not help with political rule but it makes people in general more like animals who are willing to do desperate things.
Maybe nicest way to control masses is through love for nonopressive goals (so love for self serving businesses or governments is not good enough) by loving something ok as love is about as strong motivator as fear and love can also make people feel apathetic towards most things but also willing to risk death. Curiosity may have potential as people and many animals risk death with their curiosities. 
More materialistic and sleazier tactics are in ads where advertisers often insinuate life is missing out important parts and more pointless without their product or service. "Heroes" who make people feel more insignificant can also make them more apathetic towards their own life and let some habit take over their lives (including musicians in memorable songs who's tunes keep looping in thoughts of many).
Selfish impulses may overtake if people get convinced that everyone only cares for self only so selfish desires are most right in way or maybe only way to survive at all. But same logic could justify decent nice behavior as those help with survival also as some die because they were too selfish towards others. 
Mass gatherings make people feel very feeble when they think of going against what crowd leaders demand while feeling stronger when doing what crowd demanded.
Apathy can easily arise on depressing minimum wage jobs which tend to be extra exhausting by having early work start, long days and arbitrary unfair punishments to create maximum apathy towards horrible conditions.  
Knowing how to harness apathy to selectively create impulses is easy way to feel like new level of awakening from a dream or nightmare rulers were offering. At least to me these thoughts on apathy felt like new type of awakening (between 5 and 15th may) i never had and which keeps evolving daily so it feels like schooling ad and political advisory people within month seems feasible if they didn't mind using wisdom for cynical gains.
Sedating masses may be as easy as giving them stress and providing sedating dreamland to escape through either media and/or drugs. 

After apathy is in place the animalistic urges can be awakened with pro or anti messages towards urge. For example people think of sex either with strippers or on event where women have to cover totally because horniness is so uncontrollable. People start thinking about eating no matter if message is about eating or not eating and losing weight. Drinkers get cravings with both alcohol ads or when listening to why they should not drink. Losing or gaining love both awaken fantasies about gaining love. Same with respect and pride. Sense of being on pedestal can also pacify and cause passivity but also stress about losing high position. These tiny brain parts don't care much if sensory stimuli was pro or against something as long it was reminded. 

Headaches can be planted by considering those come if people think of very conflicting emotions or think of base truths many of their beliefs rely on and think these bases may be wrong. Personally i get slight headache even when i try to imagine that atoms were instead random toys or that gravity pushes things parallel to horizon. Simple laws are physics are what people use to draw their ideas of universe and changing those ideas may be example of many-many memories being repressed while knowing them to be true. Repressing obvious truth feels almost like part of self is struggling or drowning (if drowning could keep on going for decades if truth needs to be repressed that long) and by lying to self about  base truths like gravity involves repressing all memories associated with gravity which in total don't only feel like inner struggling but more like migraine headaches with inner struggling almost like flashing and brain twitching.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Reasons for different sound frequency sensitivities

Illustration shows with non-straight lines which sounds sound equally loud through different frequencies as hearing sensitivity depends of sound frequency. For example lowest dotted line shows common hearing threshold which depends hugely on frequency. While people may hear 1000 Hz at 4 dB they may hear 3000-4000 Hz with -5 dB but even with healthy hearing 20 Hz would need to be at least 75 dB to start hearing. Resonance in auditory canal is reason why 3-4 kHz are well heard and another smaller resonance frequency is around  13 000 Hz. Loudness is measured in phons and it commonly overlaps in numerical value with dB at 1000 Hz.

Decibels measure sound intensity which can be measured in watts per square meter with 120 dB transferring sound energy of 1 watt per square meters (10 extra dB causing 10 watts per square meter and so on). Changing sound intensity 10 times changes dB value by 10. If sound is million times more intense then it has 60 dB extra. Common pain threshold is about 130 dB which is about 10 trillion times more intense than hearing threshold.According to 1st illustration hearing threshold varies by 80 dB which means 100 000 000 fold weaker hearing with 20 Hz compared to 3-4 kHz.

Subjectively heard loudness is measured in phons and that varies way less than dB. 10 dB difference means 2 fold loudness difference and with 80 dB loudness varies 256 times (2 to the power of 8).

Loudness also depends if one frequency gets louder or if several different frequencies are heard. If hearing same frequencies like violins, then about 10 times more violins are needed to double the loudness people hear as same cochlear neurons would need way more energy to feel like noise doubles compared to hearing 2 different frequencies which can seem to have double loudness as they activate separate auditory cells.

This YouTube clip of 20-16 000 Hz sounds is good proof of how sound seems to get increasingly loud (~200 fold increase in loudness is to be expected) as it gets closer to 3000-4000 Hz then after that it becomes quieter and then gets bit louder again at 13 000 Hz. For example i used sound levels where i barely heard 30 Hz with earphones on but it grew so loud without adjusting volume that i could hear 3-4kHz with earphones meter away from me.

 Dangers of extremely loud sounds  
Sonar nowadays sound often very different from bing-bing that submarines do or how movies usually make those sound. Now they are often chaotic screeching around 3000-4000 Hz (mid frequency sonar) which is pretty much loudest frequency people can hear and those modern sonars are way louder (up to 220 dB if 1 meter away from source) with audible range of 100 km. These sonars supposedly have better range than underwater radars but these loud sonars cause death among whales and dolphins. 
Sounds of seas is one documentary about the risks of such noise. Many animals that reach beach are bleeding from eyes and ears.

In addition to outer problems they were bleeding in their brains with blood visible as dark areas around brain and in skull cavities. They also had bubbles in their organs and blood vessels as high intensity sound and ultrasound can cause bubble formation in bloodstream (fast surfacing can also cause bubbles as parallel cause). Lower jawbone of whale resonates sounds and it resonates most actively between 3-4kHz. This vibration can release fatty pieces which also clog circulation.

Examples of 3600 Hz and 3800 Hz which people hear well and which vibrate skulls of whales quite strongly. I listened to these sounds for about minute as quietly as i could and that was enough to cause half hour pain in ears along with tinnitus which seems to sound like 3-4 kHz no matter what caused tinnitus. Whales may seem confused about where such sound comes from and this resonance may be cause. When i heard it louder with source meters away i had trouble hearing direction of source as it seemed to fill room and also come from my head as sound amplifies in hearing canal and creates louder unpleasant sound inside head.

Maybe one reason for these horrible sounding sonars is to deter scuba divers from planting bombs as that noise would disorientate them and kill them with internal bleeding and blood bubbling before they reached ship.
Human pain threshold of 130 dB is about billion times less intense than 220 dB which in turn is ~500 times louder than pain threshold. Sound wave pressure reaches 1 atmospheres at 194 dB and with extra 30 dB it can become 1000 atmospheres which would shake nearby creatures with ~1 ton per square centimeter 3000-4000 times per second so no amount of self control would get saboteurs near ships without dying.